Lightness and Darkness

We are creatures of lightness and darkness.

"Have you been seeing someone?"  "You have been torturing yourself since you came back."

When God cast Satan out of heaven, he made a mistake that has had metaphorical repercussions for thousands of years.  You cannot lobotomize what you are.  Or what you have created.  Its part of you for eternity.

When you feel a strong emotion welling inside of you, be it anger, fear, sadness, remorse, our first inclination is to act like the creator in the Genesis story and either distance our self from the emotion, or deny that it exists in the first place.  Or even worse, harden our self against it.  As if by force of will we can negate the existence of the emotion.  When God cast Satan from heaven, he made the lesser angel an equal.  He bestowed upon Satan a form of omnipotence that was previously reserved for himself.

"Yes"

Had God showered Satan with compassion, empathy, understanding, he would diminished Satan's power for all eternity.  After all, Satan was and always will be a creation of God.  Or better yet, had God allowed Satan's pride and arrogance to exist, incorporating itself back into God's creation, much mischief could have been spared.  Imagine the change in tone if such a formative story of human civilization had a different ending.  

How then shall we recognize what is not darkness?  To this I can only say:  You will think you know many things.  During the day.  But at night, when it all falls apart, as it must, the path beyond the darkness transcends concepts and your thoughts.  You are alone.  You will always hear these voices.  Especially if you take the chemicals supposed to induce lucid dreaming.

You will always hear the voices.  And the darkness will always return.   Look now, even during the day, can you feel your conventions begin to fade.

Forgetfulness can sometimes bring a freedom of sort.  But it is short lived.  Times change.  You move on.  You do what must be done.  And it returns.   Can you bear it?

At times, you will feel the lack of sleep forcing you into a miserable state in which everything seems flat and of equal importance.  Where nothing matters and reality seems threadbare.   At these times, I sayeth unto you, this too is not darkness.  Look carefully!