Wednesday, May 27, 2020

The Dream that Dragged On All Night

It felt like I was upstairs in the Farmhouse, but I was just sleeping on the kitchen counter.  Pain all around.  Then there were walls of Mushroom clouds in the distance.  And I could hear Chinese language.
Then outside near the tree line on the east side my father's father was outside smiling.  He was putting on women's hats and clothing.  There was a woman inside.  I did not know her, she was not familiar, but I was kissing her very gently on the upper lip.
Then I was with my mother in a bar.  The Spanish bartender knew about cognac?  Or was in a french bartender who knew about Spanish wine?  I was on the road, going from town to town in central Illinois, but it was different.  I remember in Bloomington, Rebecca Hayden was playing as a warm up band for a larger band that was playing at an outside festival.  The band was really cool and people were doing ecstatic dancing and yoga while listening, but there were not many people because of the social distancing.  
There was much more.  But I can't read my writing.  Something about bouncing balls that made you laugh and made you cry.  A party in some house for Rotary people.  My office at Its all About Wine, and Gary Borah was there with Washington University Graduates.  Something about the Tree of Life. 

Tuesday, May 26, 2020

Not Really Part of this World

I was in a Trader Joe's crawling around on all fours looking at stuff and getting all sorts of cool food.  I was with friends who I don't have in this life.  Then in a van traveling though Chicago neighborhood side streets going very very fast.  Then the brakes slammed.

My body is stuck in loop. That is my perception.  Caught in the vibrations of this space in a circular motion.  Its why I can't really relax and be in this world.  The loop keeps me vibrating.  M asked if it was her.  That I go back and forth in a circular motion with her between period of attraction and repulsion, like the alternating poles of a magnet.  I remember my old psychic friend from St. Louis.  She held a congregation of the elders and they asked her to ask me what I really want.  So I breath into my root chakra.   That is the point of my meditation and the deepening of my dream.

In a psychedelic cafe in St. Louis.  It was small, not many people there.  Nobody was wearing masks.  There was a family sitting next to us.  One of them was proud to study and U of I.  Psychedelic trance music of the 60s being played.  Took a long time to get the food.  I had to pay in a weird way.  It was in a suburb of St. Louis.  There was a Mariott next door.  I was talking to a women in the payment line who worked there.