Who Wants to Come Inn

 I think when I was at the farm house, I did not a middle of the night connection with what all these Thelemites are calling the HGA (Holy Guardian Angel).  And I did reach the Oracle status on the ESP app verifying it, as well as finding my fluorite diamond that had fallen beneath my car seat.  The latter two activities were accomplished through a rather direct intentional act. 

I'm not sure what this all means.  But at some level, its not under our control.  But we do have a role in it.  We can direct it.  

Pete Kingsley's books are interesting as well.  And the approach of the HGA surely is where that hissing sound of the snake, the ouroboros eating its own tail are pursued all the way down and the inside is turned to the outside, and the circle is completed.

But this was supposed to be about who wants to come in.  Who is asking to come in?  And to love what arises.  Welcome everything, push away nothing.  

So to put this all together, the mediation practice is to follow the hiss, and let the visitor arrive, and let it carry you on its chariot.  All the way in.  To the night. With your new black sheets.  All the way down, and you go up to reach the HGA.  Now where does a devotional practice come in? 

 

We Are the Negative and Heavy Hardness

So called  negative thoughts, negative occurrences, negative energies are the glue that brings us into form.  For example, the mindfulness practice of feeling into emotions, thoughts, and the like really is a way of bringing the negative thoughts and energies into the body so that the energy itself becomes a somatic sensation.  In this way, the thought forms or energies have a more physical manifestation.  

And sometimes late at night when the world is crushing down on you and if you are weird you have to go into the bathroom where the tiles and stone work help shield you, what is going on is that the energy is too heavy for us to process.  But if we could, it is surely a gateway to a new reality, a new way of looking at an encountering the world.  Something that whats to come up, some new birth, but for whatever reason it is stuck in the birth canal and is grating us as a result.

And I think in a cosmic sense, there is a supernormal reality that does not have a physical form, but takes a physical form, namely the earth and everything in it, through a similar process, and with a similar inertia to be overcome which explains the ever changing flux of existence.  More to the point, if this transformational energy was all positive, it would not take form.  It is only in its certain negative contractive manifestation that it becomes form.  Which makes humans very much Luciferian--and fallen angels.  We are the fallen, in every sense of the word.  And the negativity is what takes shape in us.

So when we encounter the heaviness, our task is to let us take us without resistance, and it is the sacred process of coming into birth.