Not that I believe we have an Ego, but an Ego death meditation nevertheless. I will call it the "changey" thing meditation. Look at me go.

 So I was dreaming this weekend that I was meditating in the rain under the tarp in Wisconsin next to the rocky cleft which housed the gnomes.  I was thinking that getting away from it all was kind of good as it was opening up some sort of changey thing in me.  Which wasn't all bad because changey things are good actually, because they well changey things and keep us all fresh and vital like.

So then I'm back in the condo fortress and I'm in this dreamy state again and the changey thing comes and I realize it is literally eating me.  And my initially reaction is to be scared.  But then I realize that this is the changey thing and I should just let it eat me.  And I did.  And I realize the changey thing is like vast and unconscious and vaguely like my ancestors and especially my grandfather (fathers side).    And then I realize that this changey thing also occurred to me in Ayahuasca but I ran from it because it was overwhelming, but here in this dream state I could deal with it.  And then I realize that I've integrated it.  Look at me go.   Having a psychedelic adventure which takes me six years to integrate.  Look at me go. By the way, I'm only joking because in reality I think you can  take your integration and shove it up your ass life coach.  You can't integrate the changey thing, that's the whole point.  Its changey see.  That's why I call it the changey thing.

And then later on I'm all deep in it, and my whole point of existence is in my sacrum and I'm doing sacred geometry kinda drawing out those alchemical symbols in my mind that Richard Kretz was talking about.   And I only exist in that point.  And its great.  And I go in and out of sleep.  

Then I wake up and realize that all anxiety is just the changey thing. So I create this new mediation called the changey thing meditation.  And I befriend the changey thing.  And let it do its magic.  Look at me go.

Directing the Energy

 Perhaps it makes more sense to think of what we are as energy that can be experienced through the lens (or connection) of different things--as opposed to a body, or more specifically a mind in a body thinking.

Try this:   Bring the energy to the heart.  Try that experience.  Then bring you back up to the mind.  And experience yourself through your mind. Notice the difference.  When the energy goes back up to the physical location of what we consider the mind, everything kind of opens up in a different way than when the energy is in a different place.  When the energy goes to the mind there are different voices, more of them, than when the energy is in other places.  As I type this, the energy is in my throat.  So look at me go.

Of course, the energy can also leave the body.  Go to the forest and put your arms out, palms upward and experience the energy in the forest without "your body".  Oh my god, we don't really exist in the way we think we do.  Imagine that.  We can be all around looking in.  Or we can be all "in" looking out.  The variations, like sexual positions, are enormous.  Because we are really the energy.  And we are only "in here" when our energy goes back in the area called our brain.  

And if you really want to experience the difference, think through your ass.  Come on you can do it.  Especially at night.   You may be able to discovery what is meant by the root chakra.   And of course, then you can travel down to the center of the earth, or wherever the fuck you want.  Its all good.  Its all you/not you.  Look at you go!